I was like yawning till so much tears keep rolling down my cheeks.
After school was chinese oral, and i was first one.
I definitely did screw up a little but oh well i hope everything will be fine.
Pray to god man (:
After that went to CCA room and saw Lisa on the way
really want to help her seeing her having headaches
i can only help her by saying jiayou i guess.
Finally get to talk to huisi, really missed her.
Told each other our problems especially mine at home.
Sometimes really want to just scream in my house although is retarded
but the worst part is not being called a retard.
The worst is screaming at home but no one hears it because you're alone.
Alone...
When i just want to spend some time to talk it out,
close friends sometimes don't seem to bother.
They may even just poke fun at you and say jokes
that are nasty and hurt your heart.
The worst is you got to smile and pretend you're okay.
It's tough ...
It's really very tough to make people laugh till they cry
but deep inside you're hurting from problems at home.
I understand jokes are jokes i can take it
but sometimes its just too much to handle especially at a time like this.
I like the feeling of being lonely at times, but sometimes
its really hard to accept the fact. I feel that i have reached the peak...
i got to swallow it down and put on a mask.
A happy mask...
It's really hard to handle with no support
